ya finally i did get time to write all thanks to Y's internet and laptop.... well here i go again i am attracted to someone man i don change. its so funny seriously... its been only a few weeks since i know him... ha ha ha lets see if this happens.

hmmmm i am blogging after such a long time. funny this blog is supposed to be entirely me and i 'visit' myself only when i absolutely need to talk to someone. funny how the daily running of the tyres actually make u forget the beauty of driving... i should probably see myself everyday learn something from that day... sometimes i wonder if i am actually going back to that loner me which i had promised i would not. the solace being alone gives me nothing else can. or the happiness of having someone in ur life... i wish i could switch off for sometime and let things just flow by me. just sit like that gazing at something or sit silently engulfed in his body. just do things cos i feel like it and not cos those things would lead me to something else. nothing without strings... without feeling guilty at all that i am not doing something in case i might not give him that small chance to know me better...
sometimes my silent self beckons me its a call to myself my space and my thoughts.... i hope i can answer it without strings attached.....

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hmmmm i am actually getting a taste of different people and ya backward thoughts.... its so irritating when pple assume that thier way of thinking is so right and have to condemn the others the way they r and thier expression... i mean wat exactly is accpted and wat is not??????????/ agreed u r brought up in a different way and there r bound to b discrepencies but come on not at the age of 21 and more u go out bitching abt the others.... that too without knowing who the person actually is. if its completely accepted to ask wat ur academic performance is the first time u meet then i think its completely ok for me to ask their social practices too watever man.... am too pissed today wish the classes would start and i would become busy... and ya i should talk the 'accepted' talk so that my PR doesnt get a bad makeover and i 'act' professional........ whew man wat a waste of effort... i seriously feel lousy when i even think of it. even if u do something like that at the end of it u come back to urself and complete the circle. so i would rather be me. imagine pple who have actually get used to it u know... fuck man it scares me like hell. yes they think they r being streetsmart and following the ways of the world but i don know i am not cut out for this at all.... not a bit. i tjink everybody should learn the word perception first then anything else most importantly live the damn word